So, here we are again.

We are sitting up late staring at a blank computer screan wondering where has the day been?

Where have I placed my thoughts and feelings in this day? What has happened that has brought me here to this place of wondering now, at this time?

The day started off so filled with promise, so filled with hope yet then I steped into the equation, I steped in and said NO, I want it my way today... It may have been a consious choice, it may have been that subconsious choice, it may have even been the one that we don't even realise we are doing until it gets to sitting up late at night, staring at a blank computer screan.

So many times I try to place my thoughts and feelings in your care, so many times I try and try. However, the more I try the more I fail. - It's like the more I try to please the worse I become...

How can it be that so many times I end up sitting here?

My only comfort tonight is that I know I am not alone, tonight is different. There is music playing in the background each night that I feel alone, but tonight is different.

Tonight I know that my God is with me in this place even when I can't work out how to place my thougthts into the right place. It's like a jigsaw with the piece missing each day, yet you oh Lord are that missing piece, the section that makes the entire picture make sense.

Beth Hart put it wonderfully in Soul Shine:

When you cant find the light That guides you through a cloudy day When the stars aint shinin' bright You feel like you've lost youre way When the candle lights of home Burn so very far away Well you got to let your Soul shine Just like my mamma used to say

She used to say soul shine It's better than sunshine It's better than moonshine Damn sure better than rain And if the people don't mind We all get this way sometimes You got to let your soul shine Shine to the break of day

Just as God promised Joshua  "I will not leave you or forsake you." (Joshua 1:5 ESV), that promse still rings true in our lives today, as the writer to the hebrews reminds us clearly of God's promise: “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” (Hebrews 13:5 ESV)

With this in mind, those who are trusting in God can turn back each day even if the day has begun out with a firm NO from us.

Praise shall rise as my heart will continue to say:

Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,      my salvation and my God. My soul is cast down within me; therefore I remember you from the land of Jordan and of Hermon, from Mount Mizar. (Psalm 42:5-6 ESV)